8 years ago,I had my first pregnancy back in my home country and the experience all through out my first journey is far way different the second time around. During my first, I was able to work from the day I discovered that I am carrying a life inside of me until the day I let her out to see the outside world, I had an emergency cesarean section at that time and support from my family and relatives are overflowing. As for my second, it's only me and my husband (our first daughter is back in our home country) miles away from our family, the whole duration of my second pregnancy gave me a hard time from experiencing hyperemesis gravidarum (excessive nausea and vomiting) to having Symphysis Pubic Dysfunction which lead me in having difficulty of moving around and wouldn't be able to walk sometimes because of pain. My midwife advised me to have an early maternity leave which I did because I am really struggling to do my job as a caregiver in a retirement village. It's a difficult decision as that will leave my husband to work alone but we can't do anything about it as I am in and out of the hospital already and can barely walk sometimes. I was referred to an OB and decided to have an elective CS and Tubal Ligation considering my history and this pregnancy. I've always want to experience a natural birth but I don't want to take the risk as well. I had lots of worries while waiting for the day that I will deliver our baby, it's just me and my husband this time and the pandemic is making it harder for us already. The day came to welcome our baby, I feel nervous and excited at the same time, it's like I am giving birth for the first time again, hubby was just beside me with his full support, he is very excited as well because he is allowed to go inside at the theater and will be the one to cut baby's cord which he didn't experienced with our first child. I am really thankful for all the staffs and to all who are involved in delivering my little one safely, despite of my worries, fears and some negativities that I heard, it was totally a great experience for me and our baby. It would be my last experience of giving birth as I had my tubes cut already and I am really happy that I had an amazing last journey towards it, indeed, an unforgettable one as I was not alone on that operating table but my other half was there as well to witness everything and that he was a part of it. Looking back, I can say that it is all worth it, all the sacrifices made, yes, it's only natural to have qualms and worries but when you are on that situation already, you wouldn't believe it but you can surpass all the struggles you are faced with and you will look back and will say "Yes, I did it". It's only me and my husband and yes, we did it. For now I am a full time mom with our second baby having and enjoying the chance to witness all of her milestones which we didn't experience with our first child. Being a mother is a tough job but it is a rewarding one, the joy you feel when your baby looks at you and gives you a warm smile that will make your heart flutter and melts all your worries is already enough to keep you going. You are your baby's world of comfort and love and that is a fulfilling experience as a mother knowing that your little one relies on you for everything. Thank you mom for everything, now I've got to experience it as well on my own.
